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January 11, 2005

Head of the Table

Last week was a veritable PuPu platter of emotions, PuPu being the operative word. When I dine on such an emotional feast, and never do I do so by choice, my rational self disappears. I am overwhelmed by blues, feeling depressed, lonely, and without ability to achieve desires and dreams. Unfortunately, if you try to reason with me during this ride, I will not be responsive.

As I enter the 2005, I want to be able to see that my life is rich with colors, filled with loved and dear ones, that my goals and desires are interesting and achievable. That right now, this very minute, without any thought of the future, I am loved. I am wanted. I am needed. I love. I am smart. I am funny. I am powerful. I can see that I have so many things to be grateful for! What gets in the way of Appreciation? What will make me feel happy even as I sit at the head of Emotion’s table? I want to find happiness in the now, trust in my ability to succeed, comfort and reliance in an abundance of friends. Happiness comes from a balance of the joy of the process and the end result. I want to celebrate all I have now and to embrace what the future has in store. Surely that can’t be so hard to remember.

Perhaps this is reason I will not be able to see when I am again seated at that table. I have to remind myself everyday to do 40 push-ups. Maybe one day it will become habit. I will, for 2005, think of three things each day for which I am grateful. I am grateful that I have already done 20 push-ups today and have only 20 more to go. I am grateful that I awake each morning to the sound of geese. I am grateful for warm feet.

Dishes typically included in a PuPu Platter:

sweet & sour pork or chicken
shrimp with lobster sauce
pork fried rice
chiken chow mein
seafood exotic fantasy
hunan chicken
mo go guy pan
vegetarian delight
cashew shrimp
pineable glazed pork ribs
sticky honey-soy chicken wings
fried wontons

Posted by talia at January 11, 2005 10:09 AM


The reason you are grateful to wake to the sound of geese is that for some reason the sound of geese in the middle of the night does not wake you. Still, I admit there's a certain charm, even for those of us who do hear them fighting in the night.

Posted by: Your Fiancee at January 12, 2005 9:51 PM