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May 26, 2005

When is it ok to stop

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I know what I said just the other day about feeling surprisingly good about not having a roof over my head, but now things have changed. The prospect of the continued search I think did it. The idea of shoving laundry in my backpack one load at a time and cycling to the Laundromat did it.

At some point isn't it ok to just stop deliberating and pick a card from the deck? Or is that giving up? Renting a house is not a decision of a lifetime. Should it really take this long?

I look forward to the day I purge the Housing folder from my favorites file. I look forward to the day when my housing situation is no longer a topic of converstation, because it stopped being interesting so very long ago.

Posted by talia at 9:46 AM

May 24, 2005

Dogs

I'm in stopping mode, resting mode, not taking things so seriously mode. Looking at things with new eyes. Seems to be working because I'm not at all upset about not having a place to hang my hat.

Of course I have help. Perhaps because it was so obvious I needed it. I am grateful for not having to ask for it. But I will try to.

I will also try to find new ways to laugh. Like playing dogs, that was fun, even though I'm pretty certain I lost. Actaully, can one really lose at Dogs?

How do I need to be and what do I need to be to keep this going? How am I going to be?

Posted by talia at 5:19 PM

May 4, 2005

A pause

Am focused on my vows, not to myself but to my beloved. It's so huge that I think it's ok to take a break from the journal.

My head is too full to write, there is so much going on and so much to write about, but my thoughts are muddled. Where does one begin and how does it distinguish itself from another?

Posted by talia at 9:24 PM